My Awakening Journey (Ch. 1–2)

Joy Vottus
Feb 4
2 min read

My journey led me to a workshop that promised to remove all 3D karmic templates, upgrade us to 5D energy grids, and completely release our karma — all within just two days of the workshop. The concept was compelling: the idea that we could connect directly to the Source without any intermediaries, allowing energy to flow naturally through us and instantly activate our inner gifts as energy healers.

At first, I believed I had found the right spiritual group, one that seemed genuine. I became deeply involved, volunteering my time and investing lots of money to help organize events aimed at spreading Light. I enjoyed this volunteer work so much that I even left my full-time job to dedicate myself fully to this path.

However, things began to shift when new teachings were introduced. We were instructed to pay homage to the founders, who claimed to be reincarnations of Indian deities. Gradually, they started “confession” sessions designed to bring Darkness to Light as a form of spiritual cleansing. Initially, my trust in the founders led me to follow what appeared to be beneficial for our soul’s evolution. However, these sessions soon turned into intense spiritually manipulative interrogations, targeting one follower after another.

When it was my turn, I went through many months of emotional abuse, coercion and bullying from the group, which left me deeply confused and disoriented. The final straw came when the group attempted to contact my family. That moment reinforced my decision to leave in late 2017. It was undoubtedly the darkest period of my life — I felt broken in almost everyway: emotionally, financially, and spiritually. Even after leaving the group,they continued to harass me, sending threatening emails and launching smear campaigns against me on various social media. It felt like spiritual warfare, and I sank into several months of depression.

At this point, I seriously doubted whether I could still continue on myspiritual path. I felt scattered and lost, and my pursuit of breaking free from the cycle of reincarnation seemed to drift further away. Yet, after a few months of contemplation, a quiet but persistent voice within reminded me of my purpose and urged me not to give up. I began my healing journey and realized there was a Divine Purpose behind these painful experiences. They were part of my education, teaching me that we cannot pursue pure Light without passing through Darkness in this earthly reality.

Just like in a video game, the higher the level, the tougher the challengesbecome. These experiences have elevated my awakening journey to the next level. They are integral to walking my path and will serve as valuable lessons in spiritual teachings for years to come.

Excerpt from my book Transform Your Cosmic Self: A Comprehensive Guide from Awakening to Ascension — now available Here, in both text and audiobook formats.