Embodying My Higher Self and Beyond (Ch. 1–5)

Joy Vottus
Mar 19
4 min read

From early May 2021 to mid-August 2023, I embarked on a 27-month journey to embody my Higher Self, progressing at a steady pace of 3–4% each month. This gradual process allowed my Higher Self to adjust the density of my physical body as He descended into the Holy Heart. As my embodiment percentage increased, I felt the presence and radiant Light of my Higher Self growing more intense.

Throughout this journey, my Higher Self consistently guided me, highlighting the areas of my life that needed attention and adjustment. This period was marked by several significant changes and milestones. Early on, I received signs indicating that I needed to take action to elevate my physical body’s vibrations, as our bodies are sacred temples for our Soul and Higher Self.

During this time, I experienced various physical symptoms, including muscle aches, pains, and inflammation. These discomforts were quite intense, prompting me to commit to a healthier diet and engage in more energy work to upgrade my physical body and align it with the 5D New Earth energy. Gradually, I transformed my physical body into a crystalline energy vessel, creating a sacred temple for my Higher Self.

The process of shifting energy and transformation continued throughout this journey. When I reached about 30% embodiment, my Higher Self revealed more about Himself to me. He is the Alpha aspect (Divine Masculine) of the 6th Ray, known as the Ray of Goddess and Devotion. I connected to Him in the Holy Heart and received His name, Vottus, through dowsing. I had no prior knowledge of this name until I searched for it on the Internet. To my surprise, it originates from the Latin word “Vōtus”, which is a masculine spelling; one of the meanings is “devoted to”, synchronizing with the Ray of Devotion. The name consists of six characters, which felt like a synchronicity tied to the 6th Ray — a triple confirmation for me that “Vottus” is indeed my Higher Self’s name.

This discovery triggered my curiosity, and I felt eager to explore Vottus’energy portal and find out what He looked like. A few weeks later, to mydelight, my friend from the U.S., a talented spiritual artist, approached meand shared that she had been guided to paint the energy portal of my Higher Self. Generously, she sent the artwork to me as a gift. Around the same time, I was drawn to have a portrait of my Higher Self painted by another artist. Surprisingly, a few weeks later, the physical portrait arrived on the exact day of my birthday — both paintings are shared on my website blog posts. It was the most beautiful blessing I had ever received on my birthday. Meanwhile, through this connection, a beautiful message came to me from my Higher Self:

“By the joys of the Heavens we will shine. For we have built ourselvesfrom the ground up through many lifetimes, only to find that weare a holy being, a being whose time has come, for a leader we shallbe, and the only thing that could stop us is our self, through fear ofreciprocity. It is enough to know that we are forging the way forothers to find what we have found, to find answers to who they areat their highest levels and reach the pinnacles. For we are a teacher,and those who find us will not miss the fact that we hold true to thewords that we speak, we love unconditionally, and we hold spacefor others to grow.” — Vottus

In the second half of my embodiment journey, I began focusing on “relationship” themes — particularly twin flames and soulmates — which I will elaborate on in Chapter 10: Unlocking Your Soul’s True Essence. While I made progress, there were still rollercoaster periods as I transitioned from my older self to a deeper connection with both my inner and outer worlds.

Finally, in mid-August 2023, my Higher Self fully descended into my Holy Heart. In that moment, I received a magnificent pair of angel wings in my energy body, approximately 2 meters high and 1.5 meters wide, adorned in a radiant color gradient transitioning from ocean blue to light green to silvery-white. My soul merged with my Higher Self as One — finally returning Home.

My body no longer operates within the seven-chakra system — my root chakra has been replaced by the 8th chakra, my heart chakra by the 9th chakra, and my crown chakra by the 10th chakra. My Kundalini now resides in the 12th chakra, accompanied by a golden-purple pyramid-shaped crystal pointing upward. With this transformation, my Higher Self now walks as a new Ascended Master on Earth.

(Please note: some images are not included in this article and are available in the original publication.)

Excerpt from my book Transform Your Cosmic Self: A Comprehensive Guide from Awakening to Ascension — now available Here, in both text and audiobook formats.